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Reasons why I had to stop watching ’13 Reasons Why’

13-reasons-why_0As a tv shows addicted I had to write a post on the new Netflix hit “13 reasons why”.  I actually read the book a couple of years ago and I kind of hated it: the writing was so confusing (Hannah and Clay thoughts merged together and you can’t really understand the character who is actually talking) plus I find the entire plot a bit problematic. Ok, a lot problematic! I am not talking about bullying and suicide but how a victim becomes the bullying.
As someone who felt bullying on her own skin I would EVER willingly put someone else in the situation. The loneliness. The lack of self esteem. The hate for yourself. The tears. I would never do something like that to someone else. Not even for payback. I actually think the entire tapes concept is so wrong!

I still wanted to give a shot to the Netflix series because there is no series that I didn’t try on; aside the tapes revenge, I found the storyline has been adapted pretty well for the small screen: I quite enjoyed every characters and even the story, the cast is just supreme and I love every single actor but this show is just wrong for people who has been bullied and suffers of mental health.

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All the bright places by Jennifer Niven

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TITLE: All the bright places
WRITTEN BY: Jennifer Niven
PUBLISHED BY: Knopf Books for Young Readers
HOW I GOT IT: AMAZON
VERSION I READ: ebook
PAGES: 400

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(PLOT BY GR) Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.
Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.
When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink
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What I’ve been up to: Handled my Anxiety!

These are the kind of posts that I should write before taking a HIATUS, but since I’m a really lazy person especially when I’ve got a few days to breath and I tend to watch a lot (I mean, really A LOT) of tvshows I wasn’t able to write a post about my summer holidays — so I’m gonna write something post vacations and this is why I wasn’t been able to post like ANYTHING during the past few weeks.

This month was really good to me. After having between 3 to 5 months of real shit (sorry for the term, but I’ve been really in a bad place these past months) I kind of deserved a little happiness.

So first of all, I took my first TWO-WEEKS of PAID holidays in the middle of AUGUST! *yayyyy me* and I’ve been in my first HALF/SOLO trip. If you’ve been reading my blog you know I suffer of ANXIETY and I can get pretty paranoid. Well, this month I can proudly say that I’ve been able to manage my anxiety pretty well: I TOOK A TWO HOURS FLIGHT ALL BY MYSELF (well, two flights since I had to get back too)! *high five*
I can tell you it wasn’t easy… I’ve been stalking the tracking of the company for the entire previous month and few days before my trip they cancelled one flight MILAN-MANCHESTER (THAT COULD HAVE BEEN MY FLIGHT) and I started sweating. “What if it happens to me?” “There’s only one flight at day!” “God, my summer!” — That is just a few of my thoughts that day. I’ve been able to manage the crisis by talking to someone who knows how it feels to deal with anxiety: Louise, I really want to thank her. She’s been so helpful and I re-read her messages a few times before the flight. Also my fellow book blogger and friend Amy who is been a rock and my partner in crime Anna who shared half of the trip with me and she was so patience for the three months before the flight. Thank you girls!

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Mental Healt: How is living with Anxiety

I really want to start to talk more about mental healt. I don’t know if there will be a post a month, a week or whatever. I just feel the need to share more about anxiety, depression and mental illness in general that in my country is still a stigma.
I live in Italy and lets say the 90% of the people I met treat mental illness in two different ways:
1. It’s something stupid. Everybody are stressed. Just get over it.
2. They need to be closed in a mental istitute.
People are to shallow or to scary because we don’t talk enough of MENTAL HEALT.
So here we are, my first post is about my personal anxiety and how it is to live with it.

Anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness, affecting 40 million adults in the United States age 18 and older, or 18% of the population.
Current estimates put this number much higher – approximately 30 percent – as many people don’t seek help, are misdiagnosed, or don’t know they have issues with anxiety.

I’ve been living with anxiety since I remember, a few years ago I didn’t even know that it was a real issue I just thought there was something wrong with me. Classmates always told me that I wasn’t normal, so I stucked with their way of thinking.
When I was younger I’ve got anxiety and panic attacks at the thought of just going to school I’ve been dealing with a lot of bullying and every morning it killed my stomach. I never ate breakfast during middle school and high school. As I grew up my problems grew with me so anxiety did.

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